We are surviving

It's been a while since I posted. We are surviving and things have finally slowed down a little. We have District Tournament, a baby shower and a dance recital all behind us now. It was so busy the last few weeks that we just lived day by day hour by hour. Shelby is spending the week in Louisiana with Auntie and I am going to get a lot of well needed inside chores done. But I will miss her more than anything. She is excited to be there but she's a little sad about not being home. Auntie has her hands full! Good Luck!

The recital was great and Shelby was awesome!
The tournament was great and Shelby was awesome!
The shower was nice and Shelby helped me soooo much. She's awesome!!

Some of you may not know that I have stage 4 Endometriosis. Aaron and I have been on an infertility journey for a year now. It has been a long and difficult road and our time for trying to have a baby has come to a halt. I am scheduled for a complete hysterectomy July 8th. I have known that this day would come sooner than later if we did not get pregnant. And well we're not pregnant. So plans are in order to hopefully get as much of the Endo out of my body as safely possible. There will be a colon surgeon on scene to assist in the surgery and help to remove the Endo in places that it should not be. We are coping with this as you would assume... day by day. We will never know why the door has been shut to conceive a baby of our own but it's really not ours to understand. We go into knowing that the Lord is in control. And with that said the peace about it is coming more and more. Slowly but surely. I have never been open about our situation but now is as good as any I guess. So the next few weeks I will be preparing for the surgery. There is more to do than I realized. When I sit back and think about all that has to be pre planned it is truly overwhelming. Shelby will be with her bio father the week of the surgery so she will be taken care and will not have to endure all the pre op appointments and surgery day. She is going to Sea World so her mind will be at ease. I have to plan how she will get to and from all the summer activities. I have to fix freezer meals and the house has to be spotless. I am working summer school so my time is a little more taken than it normally would be during the summer. We will get through it and I have a wonderful support system and lots of help from family and friends. Thanks ya'll!! I couldn't do it without ya.

Hope to have pictures for you next post. But don't count on it! HA!